It’s the home stretch of the semester. My days have been filled with assignments, painting, weaving, and more assignments- not to mention gearing up to pack everything we own for a move coming up! Tim and I are moving next month and we are so excited! We will be closer to family, and both of us will be closer to work, which is huge (as of late, I’ve had a 45 minute drive to work! Not ideal). It will definitely be an exciting change. The happy ultimately outweighs the stress, but packing has to be done… and it shall… during school…somehow.
I’ve been absent from the blogosphere for the past couple of weeks, which is largely due to the sheer volume of things that have been on my to-do list daily. Honestly though, its also been due to the fact that I’ve kind of been questioning myself. I’ve been absolutely loving the new friends and connections that I’ve made in the blogging world; I’ve especially been overwhelmed by the support and encouragement I felt from so many about my clean eating change (an update on that coming soon!). But, the more I’ve connected, the more the thought has creeped into my anxious mind…I’m not like them. Or I’m not good enough.
I’m a mess a lot of the time.
I often go out of the house without makeup and I love it.
My home is often cluttered, and laundry often goes undone for longer than it should!
I don’t have the perfect home, or perfect kids to photograph in perfect clothes.
I don’t have a fantastic sponsor behind every post.
I love the fashion, beauty and design scene, but it will never be one of the most important things in my life. As much as I love a polished lifestyle, I love an honest one so much more.
I often feel hesitant in this blogging world because I don’t want to become vain in an effort to be like some of the people I see around me, or (as vain as I am) be perceived that way. Ultimately, I just desperately do not want to spend time and energy on something that could pull me away from a fulfilling, Christ-filled life, rather than towards it. The thing is, and the thing that Tim is so kind to remind me of, is that out of that desire can come something good. I don’t have to try to fit a mold, and God gave me my passions for art, people and writing for a reason! My hope and my prayer going forward with Soul Palette is that I can remain fixed on what is most important, be true to who I really am, enjoy what I am doing, and ultimately point others towards the massive joy and hope that we have through Christ in this space. This blog is about documentation and having fun, but it’s also a wonderful connection to the rest of the world. Why waste that?